The last three entries on this blog(August 5, 2009) illustrate the extreme emotions I went through when I was diagnosed. I am writing this December 11, 2016 and I can tell you that the emotions are still all there, the shock, the fear, the need for unconditional love. They are as fresh in my mind today as they were seven years ago. Being able to look back and remember how I felt fuels the desire give back to this disease and share my knowledge with those who are currently going through this journey.
Cancer makes some people uncomfortable. Maybe I can help with that, just say the word. It doesn't make it go away, but use it freely. That's what makes me feel like less of a freak.
I am anxiously waiting for the nurse to call me next week to schedule the surgery date. The doctor is on vacation all next week. I personally see that as a good thing, he'll be all nice and relaxed for my surgery, on his game.
I feel FINE, I feel GREAT, I have no idea I have breast cancer. Probably a reason it sneaks up on people: you don't know you feel bad until the MRI or Dr tells you you do. I love my family, my boys. They make me laugh, and they are so logical about this TNBC (Triple negative breast cancer) that has been placed in our lives. I love my Mom for her constant positive attitude, and my friends and family who are so brutally honest with me. Who don't let me get away with too much. I'm thankful for my new Facebook friends, who have known me since I was a little girl, and are there for me again in life: praise Facebook!!!
Headed to the beach for some down time, which you will learn is my absolute favorite.